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Becoming single:
I've been becoming single since I moved to the U.S.
A new place drives me to adopt the new lifestyle and to think what it is about.
Being single is about knowing myself.

I know what and how much I like to eat
and I (usually) do conscious shopping at supermarkets -
Obviously, I develop my own preference for shops
and know where to get what is the best.

I know the "tells" of falling dark holes of anxiety
and have been compiling a "manual" for those moments.
One of the most important things I learned from the conversations with Kat
is that I don't fight with my negative thoughts,
I just learn to figure out and live with them.
Sleep and showers work since college days -
when anxious, sleep; if can't sleep, take a shower.
Expressive writing is good - like what I've been doing here for the past decade.

I know how to make myself happy.
Read is great. But when I can't concentrate, it makes things worse.
Exercise. I've been out of my routine workout since moving back.
But I decided to sign up the lunchtime yoga class again
and did it for the first time in a while yesterday. Better mood and sleep cycle.
Now I'm trying online-learning
- arranged, organized videos seem to fit an "obliger" like me.
Dating is essential.
The happy journey starts from the moment I arrange a meeting.
Sometimes I get myself (and my date) a new piece of garment;
sometimes I pick up something for others. Shopping for others delights me.
I date myself too.
It is about getting dressed up for myself, planning an itinerary for myself -
in short, taking care of the most important person in my life.


不成文：
週四出公差。決定不穿喜歡的雨鞋出門的時候我覺得自己真是個大人了，
我穿夾拖然後把黑色平底鞋放在包包裡。這是工作用的包包。

餵豬的行程裡認識幾位久仰大名的新朋友。
老實說現在好像已經可以在暫停一下之後，更持平地去認識人，
You are good, but just not perfect.
We are both good - we are diligent, but lazy from time to time.
In essence, we are just human being, not god.

I learned:
Seminars are about gleaning inspirational things (from a mess).
Value is about how people can "(re)use" your products, so -
appreciate: organized facts, evidence-based judgment;
pass: name-dropping, boast, accusation, so on and so forth.
Go get a "floor".

下班後穿越全XY計劃區的百貨公司（倒）去捷運站找也剛下班（嘻嘻）的大可。
再度沒有吃 muji cafe 再度吃沾麵。還是魚介的好吃。
回家的時候覺得，沒喝酒也跟微醺一樣開心，真是太好了。感覺太像週五晚上。

大大笑的時刻：
之一（我不懂）「妳不吃（鬆餅）喔？」「不要。」（切塊）
「妳要吃一塊嗎？」「好。」哈哈哈哈哈。
之二（On bell curve）「他們（當兵的男生）就是活在 tinder 裡啊（茶）」

週五好忙，一進辦公室就收到老闆（兩天前寄來）的信，
連忙打包「過去一年OO小組所有會議的會議記錄」
檔案管理還是很重要的吶，所以我二十分鐘之後可以去吃早餐，整排標題整整齊齊就是爽。
豬排蛋材料之後喝咖啡瀏覽新聞，打電話確認出席順便跟某B77的學長聯絡工作感情，
繼續整理被點菜的會議附件。猶豫了一下還是換個短褲去做瑜伽。然後也不太餓就繼續找附件。
弄得差不多了就去吃點心然後參加十九大講座，插科打諢的部分都去掉之後還是不錯的。
想到前一天聽的「智庫要幹嘛」討論，覺得現在這樣晃來晃去還是挺好的。
結束後繼續把便當包好，然後寫信給JL，然後趕快離開（一整天都沒踏出過的）辦公室。
風雨頗大所以先去買雞蛋肉腸帶回家，一時興起先去喝碗湯，結果開胃了又點腐皮捲來吃。
腆著肚子走到家門口結果發現忘記帶鑰匙（登愣好像是第一次）
確認一下室友何時回家，有室友還是很好的（泣）
然後就意外地心平氣和地去找個地方坐下來讀書，真是個能好好讀書的時候吶。

有運動就會想睡而且睡得好，涼涼的天氣裡賴床也舒服。
雨不大，決定出門吃昨晚想到的涮涮鍋。
老闆娘努力地介紹各式優惠方案，但我心意已決（這種感覺很爽）第一個點餐。
內容物頗豐盛，也很符合我只想嚐嚐味道的份量，太好了。

剛喝完好好喝的拿鐵，現在要來打摘要，晚上準備看電影。哇哇一個假日就要過了。
如蔬果宅配箱般湧來的預約書們請等等我。